Familiarity in hidden vanity and chaos

"A lot of people who charge around trying to wake up the world are actually some of the most vain people you'll ever come across.

Yet, they disguise that vanity under what appears to be a necessary positive thing.

Those who have chaos inside themselves prefer a climate of chaos, because they don't stand out as much."

Michael Tsarion, writer and teacher

P!nk - Sober

Without being dramatic
I don't really know what to do anymore.
My life is really shit.
And I'm not upset.
It's crystal clear, which is probably the scary thing.



I dont want to be girl who laughts the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone.
I dont want to be that call at 4 o clock in the morning.
Cus im the only one in the world who wont be home.

sun is blinding.
stay up again.
i am finding.
Thats not the way i want my story to end

Im safe, up high.
Nothing can touch me.
Why do i feel this party's over?

No pain, inside.
Your my protection.
But how do i feel this good sober?

I dont want to be the girl who has to fill the silence.
The quiet scares me because it screams the truth.
Please dont tell me that we had that conversation.
Cus i wont remember, safe your breathe, cus whats the use.

night is coming.
And it whispers to me softly 'come and play'.
i am falling.
And if i ever still go im the only one to blame.

Coming down
Spinning round
Looking for myself
Sober

When its good, then its good. Its all good till it goes bad.
Till you try and find the you that you once had.
I have heard myself cry never again.
Brokern down in agony, tryin to find a friend.

'Fragile'

Decent-looking post apocalyptic RPG from Namco-Bandai.
Looks really pretty, been keeping an eye on this for a while.

Sick but cool

Obviously, the point of this is not to glamourise such a horrible disease.
But I really like the idea of the campaign, nonetheless.

Wonder if they got DC's permission...

Britney Spears - Unusual You

Nothing about you is typical
Nothing about you is predictable
You’ve got me all twisted and confused
Up til now, I thought I knew love
Nothing to loose and its damaged cause
Patterns will fall as quick as I do, but now

Bridges are burning
Baby I’m learning, a new way of thinking now
Love I can see, nothing will be, just like it was
Is that because?

Baby you’re so unusual
Didn’t anyone tell you you’re supposed to
break my heart, I expect you to
so why haven’t you?

Maybe you’re not even human cause
Only an angel can be so unusual
Sweet surprise, I could get used to
Unusual You

Been so many things when i was someone else
Boxer in the ring trying to defend myself
In the private eye to see what's going on
(That's long gone)
When I'm with you, i can just be myself
You're always where you said you will be
Shocking cause i never knew love like this could exist

Tables are turning
My heart is soaring, You'll never let me down
Answer my call, here after all
Never met anyone like you

Can't believe that I almost didn't try
When you call my name
Now everything has changed

Coconuts and grapes

I have WAY too much planning today.

My life is going to be really hard work.


Thank god the social life is on the way out
Because if I had nothing to do all this waiting around would be killing me.
I don't have any excuses for you anymore, you are becoming quite the arse.
'One rule for everybody' has never seemed quite so apt
And right now I feel like I have quite a lot of egg on my face.
Cheers mate.

Roy Lichtenstein

Is my new obsession.
Because it's nice to identify with some drama.


'Drowning Girl'



'Forget it! Forget Me!'



'Girl at Piano'

Feel I Could Wipe You.

What you are
What you see
It don't matter to me

It don't matter to me
What you know
What you need
It don't matter to me
Just be faithful to me

First I saw the letter
Heard your secret code
Tellin' me walk away
What a waste, turning cold

What you say
What you mean
It don't matter to me
It don't matter to me

What you want
What you dream
It don't matter to me
Just be faithful to me

When you know
You're turning cold


Love is pain
Uh-Oh-Oh-Oh
Love is pain
Uh-Oh-Oh-Oh
You're insane
Uh-Oh-Oh-Oh
Feel I Could Wipe You.

Ringleader

Mannequin
You can cry your eyes right out of your head.


Kill The Lights
You don't like me
I don't like you
It don't matter.
Only Difference,
You still listen
I don't have to.


Amnesia
When we touch I melt like butter.

Miaow.

"Fame is an unnatural construct and those who go in search of it are the least likely to find it," he said.

I mean, really, does anyone want to sit through a show by The Killers?

What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas, unfortunately with the exception of The Killers."

Ryan Adams

Kingswood

In a week which could have been a potential emotional black hole, this was my rehab.

I now know this is what I want to do, and I am doing what I am at the moment for a good reason.

Things will come and go, but this is my life and my career and I'm happy with it.

Also, I got asked out on a date in a cave.
I did not go on the date.

The Maine - This Is The End

Today I think I lost a really good friend
Because I got tired of the pity, and wised up to the reality of selfishness.
This is ACTIVE DAMAGE CONTROL.


I'm taking, taking all of my time
I'm dodging words, but she's saying the right lines
She made me, made me oh so crazy
But this time I feel like I'm doing something right

It made me sick to think about
Everything you put me through and how you left without
(Saying goodbye) And if it's really over now
Then you can walk away and it would be the last time

This is the end
Of you and me
And everything I used to be
Back then it meant something
But you're living a lie, you just can't hide from me

You had me hanging on your last word
And now I'm feeling a little less than trusting
You had me wishing we were something
But left me here with a whole lot of nothing now

This is the end
Of you and me
And everything I used to be
Back then it meant something
But you're living a lie, you just can't hide from me

Love is a luxury
She said "I'd rather be in love than dead"
But now it's her, oh God now it's her
She's the type of girl who makes love

I'm taking, taking all of my time
I'm dodging words but she's saying the right lines
She's made me, made me, oh so crazy
But this time I feel like I got it right

This is the end
Of you and me
Everything I used to be
Back then it meant something
But you're living a lie, you just can't hide from me

If we're being children

And posting our opinions in bulletins on myspace
I'm not one to miss getting on the bandwagon.


You're 18.
Grow the fuck up, you child.

If you can't handle social interaction, maybe you should just stay in.
That would be a lot easier than inevitably letting down all the people around you.

I don't know why I'm searching for something that's not there.
I always thought it would be pretty easy to be friends with everyone, and by now I know that there are certain situations where things are best left unsaid.
But if I didn't think you could handle it, I would never have put either of us in this kind of position.
I am an adult, and I am not an idiot, I have been through this too many times before.

If I'm being harsh, it's because your motives and ways of dealing are so incredibly out of line it's not even funny. Evaluate yourself before you tell me how important I am, because you are wasting my time.

I don't want to care.
I used to pity, now I can't even use that as an excuse.
You are fully aware of what you are doing.
You are not that stupid.

For the record
I'm not brave enough to post this.
and THIS IS NOT A DIARY.

Don't prolong it.

Without any meaning
We're just skin and bone

Like beautiful robots
Dancing alone.

SHINY TOY CRAP.

So the half decent female lead from Shiny Toy Gunse left, or got fired or whatever.
And they replace her with this tramp, a reject who PUBLICALLY AND ON REALITY TV AUDITIONED TO BE A PUSSYCAT DOLL.





So at least the promo shoot was good.
Shame about the shocking new direction and lack off all sense of songwriting prowess.



He should still have a right to wear this crown.
But despite how much I love him, this is shit.

Paramore - Decode

From the soundtrack of the upcoming vampire movie 'Twilight', probably going to be huge
BLA BLA BLA...

Very good return to form.



How can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win
You're losing sight
All the time

Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own

I'm screaming, "I love you so"
My thoughts you can't decode

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves

There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

Emiliana Torrini - Jungle Drum

This is what I was trying to say, but am clearly not articulate enough.
Really is a very good album, too.


Hey, I'm in love,
My fingers keep on clicking to the beating of my heart.
Hey, I can't stop my feet,
Ebony and ivory and dancing in the street.
Hey, it's because of you,
The world is in a crazy, hazy hue.

My heart is beating like a jungle drum

Man, you got me burning,
I'm the moment between the striking and the fire.
Hey, read my lips,
Cause all they say is kiss, kiss, kiss.
No, it'll never stop,
My hands are in the air, yes I'm in love.

Wow.

Life is really good.
I'm really happy.
Stuff travels really fast, doesn't it?
But who should be the one to put the brakes on?
Does anyone need to put the brakes on?

I like questions that I don't have to answer.